Today was better than most. I am trying to focus on being positive. I mean that's really all I have to hang on to right now. Our house is selling and we currently have no place to go so we'll probably end up living with my brother and sister in law. Ugh. I suppose we will just have to get to looking and hopefully find a place. Wish us luck and please pray for me. I need help being positive.
For every crappy thing you say to me you have to say 100 nice things for me to forget that one thing. Just once in a while I would like to hear that you are proud of me for something or that you care or that I didn't ruin your lives. Every time you take a drink you say at least one bad thing and I have yet to hear any apologies or any good things to fix it. I have a complex and it is all your fault. Think about that tomorrow when you're drinking my life away.
So I have something to do tonight that I have to dress up for and I have to say, I look fantastic. It's so much easier to do my hair in an up do now that it is shorter. I got new earrings and a new shirt today. With my hair up, little makeup, a semi short skirt, some very cute heels (they've been voted on and complimented numerous times), a pair of earrings and an anklet I look wonderful. However... when I needed fashion advice tonight nobody was available. What the hell? Now all I need is my date to get here.
No matter the circumstances I have been feeling sexually frustrated. I'm not sure what to do about this because I don't want to offend the person I'm sleeping with by telling him that what he's doing isn't doing it for me. I also am tired of taking care of it myself. That gets rather irritating and it's quite lonely.
My dad is a jerk. I'm not putting up with his crap anymore. We won't be hanging out anymore unless he stops drinking. And for anyone that may know him we know he wont be sobering up any time soon.
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